Humbled

It is amazing to me how much wisdom a little 5 year old can have.  I have been having a rough week with the kids, and by the time bed time rolls around I am burnt out and cranky.  Needless to say there has been a lot of yelling, slamming doors and threatening on my part (so sorry to Justins family who has to listen to it :).  Last night the girls weren't going to bed and I was once again letting my anger get the better of me and I stormed in to the girls room.  Then I saw Bailee standing in the middle of the room ,with the sadest look on her face and then she tells me,

" Mom, I don't like it when your angry, can you please be happy and never be angry again." and then she crumbled in my arms.

Talk about heart breaking!!!!! Then it was my turn to crumble in her arms and tell her how sorry I was and how much I loved her.  Then Sydney came over and hugged both of us and said "Mom you need to be happy and leave the light on because it's scary".

Then Bailee asked if I would get into my pj's and sleep with her, which of course I couldn't say no to.  As we were snuggling she looks at me and rubs my face and says " Remember mom we always need to say sorry".

At that moment I knew that was my Heavenly Fathers way of saying "tone it down" and I knew that my little Bailee was teaching me something amazing.  Not only did she teach me that our actions REALLY affect those around us;but how simple and powerful the words "I'm sorry" can be.  I think that as parents we teach and teach our kids to say sorry and recognize when they have hurt someone.  But sometimes we forget to practice what we teach especially in our own families because, "we are the parents, and we can never be wrong".  But our kids need to know that we make mistakes, that we recognize them, and are willing to do what we are expecting them to do.

I knew all of this stuff before, but last night it really touched my heart.  I know that I will continue to make mistakes, and so will my kids.  I will have many more hard days, I 'm sure that there is more yelling to come,because hey we're not perfect.  But I know that I can always strive to be a better mom; and in tough moments let my pride go and let myself reach out for my children and ask them for forgiveness.  We can't be perfect parents or have perfect kids, but we can have perfect moments together and those moments will carry us through the harder times.

Anyways sorry to ramble, but I wanted to make sure that I wrote this down.

"Remember to always say sorry " -Bailee